In a new cover story for Sports Illustrated, Caitlyn Jenner is speaking about her body 40 years after winning gold at the Olympic games in 1976.
“It disgusted me. I was big and thick and masculine,” she says. “The rest of the world thought it was this Greek god kind of body. I hated it. But it’s what I was given, so I just tried to do the best I could with it.”
Jenner appeared on the cover of the magazine before, as Bruce, after the decathlon win in August 1976. “The decathlon for me was the ultimate in what people think of as manhood,” she explains in the interview featured in the July issue. “So for me, it was a good place to hide. I had a need to prove myself, that maybe that woman that’s living inside of me really isn’t living there.”
This past weekend, a semblance of Jenner’s body was featured in Kanye West’s controversial video for his track, “Famous,” alongside Jenner’s stepdaughter, Kim Kardashian. Nude bodies that resemble Taylor Swift, Rihanna, George W. Bush, Bill Cosby and Donald Trump were also included in the video. Although many people are now familiar with Jenner from her reality shows, it was her time as an athlete that initially brought her fame and fortune.
“Sports. It’s not real life. You go out there, you work hard, you train your ass off, win the Games. I’m very proud of that part of my life,” she explains. “And it’s not like I just want to throw it out. It’s part of who I am. What I’m dealing with now, this is about who you are as a human being.”